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i get genuinely furious when i see skinny people and i know that’s not normal and i hate it but the anger and hatred i feel for some complete strangers for being skinny is legitimately alarming to me like dude chill
#i don’t actually hate them i know#i’m angry at what i lost#and im jelpuse of what they have#and the perceived ease at which they acheived it#even though i don’t fuckin know them#it’s such an ugly feeling and not one i am used to at all#i hate it i hate feeling this way but it’s so visceral i can’t ignore it#love having emotions i know full well are not logically accurate to how i think i feel is so fucked
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Hua Cheng essentially cockblocking himself for possibly all of eternity will literally never not be the funniest thing MXTX ever wrote.
Xie Lian was pretty much completely in love with him the second he saw those lanterns (and completely oblivious about it) and then we get the wonderful first kiss underwater moment and Xie Lian is basically drawing hearts around Hua Cheng every time he sees him. While like quietly dying cause he literally has no idea what to do with it. Like at this point he doesn’t even really understand that he is head over heels totally gone for this man.
Until Hua Cheng is like I have a beloved I just haven’t won them over yet. Which he thinks is perfectly reasonable because his self esteem is the worst and he doesn’t understand how he could have won Xie Lian over yet. (He’s only on step 22 of his Marrying Dianxia 3000 step Master Plan ((that he debates throwing out on a regular basis because he doesn’t deserve to even dream about wanting Xie Lian)). So course he’s like yeah I have this wonderful noble beautiful beloved I just haven’t won them over yet wink wink nudge nudge.
But Xie Lian is like oh of course obviously I don’t deserve nice things and fuck I actually wanted him so badly I’m actually in love with him and now I will resign myself to never being happy for his sake. (Their combined self esteem is truly a so low it’s a hole in the ground which is hilarious because they think the other person is to good for them and unattainable forever because they literally have the same neurosis.) So he starts boxing up his feelings forever constantly wanting Hua Cheng and feeling guilty about it and literally dying inside because he wants Hua Cheng like he’s never wanted anyone.
Like essentially books 3 and 5 only happen because Hua Cheng has now cursed them both by saying he has a beloved because Xie Lian believes he isn’t wanted and therefore any nice thing Hua Cheng does is just him being nice and not Hua Cheng pulling out steps 23-34 of his plan thinking he still hasn’t won Xie Lian over. (He has he so has but he shot himself in the foot so badly it’s painful to read).
Like thank the Gods Hua Cheng is so unhinged and created the cave of 10000 Gods cause Xie Lian would literally be at his own wedding to Hua Cheng still convinced he wanted someone else and this was in fact a thing they were doing to solve a case together otherwise.
Like he needed something that unhinged to put 2 and 2 together otherwise he never would have caught on he’s Hua Cheng’s beloved. Meanwhile Hua cheng is like 🥺 he’s going to think I’m a weirdo now and I’m only on step 50 of the plan 🥺 like the two of them wouldn’t have been fucking nasty 2 books ago if he just kept his mouth shut and didn’t cockblock himself so violently.
#I hate them I love them they are both so stupid#hualian#tgcf#tian guan ci fu#hua cheng#xie lian#heavens official blessing#heaven official's blessing#hualian meta#tgcf meta#actually don’t know why I’m tagging this as meta I’m just bullying them but you get it#zee rambles#writing them and wanting to die#zees 2am text posts
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hello everyone please accept this as my apology for disappearing off the face of the earth for a second time <3
NO SHIP HATE IN THE NOTES PLEASE this is meant to be silly
#i know creek is more popular than style but i simply HAD to put them as random canon yaoi because that’s literally what they are#and kyman isn’t really tragic or canon but it made me laugh to put it there soooo#NO HATE TO HEIMAN the ship is actually so interesting and i know there are people who enjoy it#never seen a tolkole or bunny hater but i could be wrong idk#don’t mind me casually pushing the revin agenda#i know i used their breakup picture BUT ITS THE ONLY ONE I COULD FIND#matt and trey should make them stand next to each other more often#i actually love firkle x ike and karen x tricia but it is objectively silly#i don’t even know what i mean about cartman and butters but i know i’m right#stendy#style sp#sp style#fike#sp fike#kyman#heiman#tolkien x nichole#karen x tricia#sp bunny#scyde#sp creek#revin#sp revin#cartters#sp buttman#south park
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phinktober day 11: ur fav AU
i dont rlly do AUs so i just drew them how i wish they would dress xo
(dan’s tats r carnations and snowdrops and phil’s r roses and honeysuckle. for no reason 🤗)
ALSO bonus version w makeup bc i couldn’t pick <3
#soz copied caption from twt i have been drawing for 7 hours straight i need to drink water eat something take a piss and a shower and sleep#no braincell rn#goodbye it is wine time#hope yall like this idfk what people what these days other than ship art but im not doing that so sorry no knights fucking for you#just me making them look like me bc i’m a narcissist etc#god i am way too tired to be yapping rn i have no filter whatever ABYWAY HASHTAG DANIPHIW#art2 and craft2#dnp#phanart#dan and phil#daniel howell#amazingphil#dan howell#phil lester#phinktober#punk edits irl come back to me please#i’m missing a fkn hashtag i just know it whatever i don’t CARE im TIRED i have eaten nothing but half a jar of picked today i feel so goblin#idk why i tunnelvisioned w this piece it’s not even that good or detailed LMFAO#actually the tattoos were a BITCH and also made me sad bc of my whole failed tattooing career etc#OH MY GOD WHY AM I YAPPING SO MUCH SOMEONE EUTHANISE ME#good NIGHT !!!!!!#pickles not picked btw but i’m not retyping all of that#now i’m sad bc i’m out of pickles and it’s 10pm and everything is shut:( hate my stupid gay life
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is this anything
#pikmin#splatoon#pikmin louie#louie pikmin#captain olimar#olimar#president pikmin#pikmin president#era.png#to be clear: i dont play splatoon nor do i know much about it!#but i’ve seen the results and reactions to the latest splatfest and wooo boy…#TO BE CLEAR AGAIN! i do not hate shiver nor do i think anybody actually hates them either#but it is ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS how they’ve won FIVE TIMES IN A ROW!#just my two cents on the matter — don’t go sending people threats. i only thought this would be funny to draw#id in alt text
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All my attempts on drawing mr grizz
#art#fanart#my art#original art#unfinished#Splatoon#Splatoon 3#Splatoon 3 art#splatoon fanart#splatoon art#spaltoon fanart#splatoon mr grizz#mr grizz#grizzco#splatoon grizzco#furry#love bears#just don’t know how to draw them#ugh I don’t have any energies to draw or anything#im so miserable atm i need to finish so many assignments and projects I might actually die this week#I hate my life#im too young for all this shit I really just want to be left alone and in peace#oopsies vented on my tags again
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When people are like Wei Wuxian was NOT suicidal it’s like. Ok sure. He just believed that his debt to the Jiangs should be paid with everything up to and including his life. And also that the moral and obvious thing to do in any situation is to put himself between anyone and harm's way. This is because he thinks he’s unkillable but he makes himself unkillable for the same reason he’ll die for a good enough reason: because it’s a way to have worth!
And then famously once everything goes to shit he does beg Lan Wangji to let him die as part of the moment where he is either destroyed by his own evil magic or lets his own evil magic tear him apart, a distinction I don't personally think matters very much at that point. Less explicitly textually, his mentally ill ass behavior after he gives up his core says to me that he wishes that he'd died honorably for Jiang Cheng when he had the chance and doesn't know what to do with himself since he hasn't.
Again I’m aware that he’s operating under a pretty specific set of culturally informed norms as a cultivator and member of a sect but like. TO ME. Everything about how Wei Wuxian conducts himself indicates that he has a box in his mind at all times that says 'in case of emergency break glass' and what’s inside the box is his own death. All the sound of mind actions of a man who has a normal and not suicidal relationship to death.
#suicide cw#I know I don’t need to engage with self identified wwx fans#who want him to be a perfect angel who only made good choices for pure reasons#but like#to ME dying for the jiangs is the only thing he might be able to do to please madame yu#and I think they both were very aware of that lol#in many ways Wei Wuxian was very comfortable with the idea that he’d be better use to people dead#this is like the CRUX of suicidality lol#it’s still suicidality even if it doesn’t look like#him being like wow I hate myself I want to die lol#which I do think as much as I don’t agree with giving him self esteem issues uwu style#he definitely gets there after he realizes that he’s ruined his life all to save the wens and it hasn’t saved them#the like who can tell what I should do soliloquy#anyway saw a post and was just thinking about it#also bc I made an offhand comment about him being suicidal#but i actually do genuinely think its an interesting facet of his character#specifically because i think his relationship to his own death is complex is based in his life also being not entirely his own#this is whats so juicy about a lot of the pre timeskip stuff!!!#like arguably this is true of cultivation society bc it’s a martial world#sure!#but imho he’s taking a step further#bc he does have inherent worth issues#namely that he doesn’t think he has inherent worth#which is why everything he does is designed to make up for that
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hey so I liked the sonic movies a lot I think
#Lowkey was not expecting them to be so good like hello#First time drawing sonic characters actually#Never really got too into sonic#But it was so good#pls don’t jump me for only know the movies I’m sorry I’ll try harder next time#sonic the hedgehog#sonic fanart#sonic movie 3#shadow the hedgehog#sonadow#kinda???#they’re so stupid and I hate them#Shout to my they/them wife baby girl for taking me to the movies for the 3rd one I love you#tails the fox#knuckles the echidna#tails fanart#knuckles#sth#knuckles fanart#sonic and shadow#shadow the hedghog fanart
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I like your genderbends of jojo male characters, but have you done any gender bends for female characters?
I have! These are old though, and I want to update them
#ask reply#there’s ff Jolyne and ermes#and bottom two are Erina and Trish 🙏🏾#I don’t hate these designs but I know I can tweak them to be better#besides like ff they are perfect actually
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Michaelmcchill really asking the real questions about Dream and the Prison…
[clip] Sapnap: “He’s fucked up alright? He was my friend but he’s Fucked Up, okay? He wanted to control everyone.” Eryn:”Really?” Micheal: “So you do think he should be in there?” Sapnap: “Yes.” Michael: “For how long?”
[clip] (about Sapnap’s visit to prison) Michael: “But was he like shaking bars fucked up? Or like what?—Was he acting like a fucking monkey in the zoo, like trying to get the fuck out, or what?” Sapnap: “Like no this—look he went from being fucked up in terms of like—like him just being like a bad person to him being fucked up by being like he wouldn’t talk—like oh he—he was like—he got fucked up from being in prison so long. You know what I mean? There’s a difference between the two fucks up.” Michael: “Well if he got fucked up from being in prison then maybe he should be out?” Sapnap: “No, no, no, Micheal, you’ve got it all wrong. He needs to be in prison til he’s not fucked up either way. Once he’s just not fucked up and—” Michael: “Wait a minute, so the prison made him fucked up?” Sapnap: “No, no, no, he was fucked up, alright? And then he got a different kind of fucked up but he’s probably still the other fucked up as well. You get what I’m saying.” Michael: “I mean I get it he was fucked up before he went in but it seems like the prison has fucked him up even more.” Sapnap: “No—no, look he’s gonna get better.” Michael: “If he—if he’s your friend, wouldn’t you want to help him get better?”
[clip] Michael: “But maybe the prison can’t help him!” Sapnap: “Michael, you’re wrong.” Michael: “I’m—I’m just asking.” Sapnap: “Michael, he has to stay in there. If he comes out— Michael: “These aren’t necessarily my opinions I just don’t—I mean if he’s you friend—What if he needs therapy instead of the prison?”
#c!michaelmcchill#he is so under rated for real… like I would love for you to be dreams lawyer at the count case ya know :)#Michael be pulling out that techno vibes of calling it like it is and wondering wtf is going on and why it don’t make sense lol XD…#dishing up lore#dsmp#dsmp lore#dreblr#c!eryn#prison arc#c!sapnap#dsmp transcripts#freaking sapnap man…. the more of him I watch the more o hate him#pandora’s vault#so sad we didn’t really get any lore of Michael and dream… I would have loved to see them interact… would it be like Dream getting his own#slime or tubbo?… like clingy and loyal lol XD#(I don’t know why there is a weird gap there it is actually driving me insane…)
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Mouthwashing is genuinely one of the first fandom spaces in a while where I’ve seen people outright refuse to curate their own personal spaces and try to shame people for not making what they personal like/believe
Like this is not saying ignore any issues that come up or whatever is serious but like on the general terms of just not interacting with things that are not your personal take or interpretation, a genuine refusal to just look at and create things that you like.
Constantly seeing people repost art without credit to shit talk it and excusing it because “well it’s bad cause insert deeply personal and not actually a valid justification”, calling out people for silly comics or differing interpretations. Its not just a holier than thou mindset it’s just a weird hatred for things not specifically catered to you or your view point at this point and like it’s seriously the case of just follow and like what you want to see and block, mute or whatever doesn’t fit it.
Take this out of context all you like, but I just so odd to me to try and force people to interpret and engage with a media that is supposed to be purposefully vague and open in certain areas. Or just be mad that people like to play with and explore the characters outside the story, in different settings or with twists in events.
Like why is it an issue that someone is having fun with the game in a different way than you?
#like idk I just know how to curate what I do and don’t want to see#I never stumble on shit I hate unless looking for it or someone else put it in my dash or tl or actually asked me about it#like idk I’m normal ig and don’t attack people personally for differing views#tired of seeing so much art of Jimmy or curly or analyses of their actions?#literally look at the specific tags of other characters mute comments asking about them#only want Anya posts? like a bunch follow the tag like why are you mad at someone else for enjoying a different facet or aspect of the game#yall are weird#pls let this be the last fandom think piece I have to make like I just want to analyze the actual game#wrote stupid fics and critique vague aspects people are giving to much purpose to or interpreting past info we are given#I love a fill in the blanks and intentions story why are you made people spit ball ideas differently#I’m almost free of finals almost so close yet so far pls lord give me the strength l#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game
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A good deal of the BBC Ghosts fandom after S5E5…
#I don’t hate it#but I don’t know if I’ll ever be used to it#and yes I know Havers’ name was actually Anthony but that didn’t make me feel this way#o captain my captain#bbc ghosts#ghosts#bbc ghosts spoilers#ghosts season 5#bbc ghosts s5#bbc ghosts s5 spoilers#bbc ghosts s5e5#the captain#bbc ghosts the captain#ben willbond#six idiots#the six idiots#them there#good omens#gomens#michael sheen#aziraphale#i made a thing
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College (uni??) AU catering to my own interests as it should always be hehe :)
#projecting my major on Vash because them mfs who have changed from the med field majors to that one have some tragic things to tell#and also because I think that Vash would be such a wonderful designer I don’t know why it’s a gut feeling#Nai the law major because of course he would have you seen the guy#he would be a personal injury lawyer because lore#fun fact Nai rested for a semester after the incident with Vash while Vash took two.He never told Nai he would be changing majors#so it was a big big shock for him. they fought again but yk I’ll explain more on that if anyone is interested#as to Kni and WW I thought it’d be funny if they shared a common subject that required a lot of team assignments#and they can NEVER work out together. being an absolute nightmare to the rest of their group#separately they are great to work with. even if Kni can come off as too bossy sometimes he is actually a great leader#and WW would always deliver things on time exactly as it was asked from him#but Kni and WW just never really matched. Kni was too rude at times when WW made a mistake and WW would always clock him if he passed a line#like insulting his reasons for wanting to study security#one day Kni tells him at the beginning of a new semester where they both have unfortunately landed on a shared subject again#“you are not suited for that sort of job Wolfwood. you should simply give up and why don’t you go play role model to your little kids’’#then WW beats him again and then is like hey yk what you’re kinda right. and changed majors and he feels so much more at home studying#education/teaching than security. he fucking hates some things but the end goal makes it worthy#Trigun Uni! AU#because I don’t know how differently a college and a uni work#trigun#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun stampede#vashwood#trigun fanart#wolfwood#vash#Nai saverem#millions knives#lenssi draws#pen!
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9-1-1 fandom deal with your amatonormativity challenge ESPECIALLY when eddie’s storyline has been and continues to be filled with amatonormativity and how damaging it is to him…. fandom will agree that he’s been constantly forcing himself into relationships to get the ideal nuclear family for his son and because he thinks he’s failed as a father and person but at the same time think if he just gets with buck it will fix all of his problems… it’s exhausting and damaging and if the show doesn’t grapple with the bad messages they’ve been sending the least the fandom could do is acknowledge it and not propitiate it…
#i’m just i’m really tired last season was really difficult for me to get through with eddie’s plot and i honestly think the show has a great#chance to correct that but i honestly don’t know if they will be and that will hurt even more#i’m just done as an aroace person it’s really making it hard to interact with this fandom lately#rey actually speaks#911#eddie diaz#buddie#i’m just gonna say also this is not hate towards buddie i ship them so i don’t want anybody trashing people for shipping it#this is not part of the ship war drama so don’t even#amatonormativity
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Honestly really disappointing and upsetting that just after I found the pills that make you green comics the creator turned out to very much extremely hate people like me
#I guess her transmasc audience was getting too big and she had to go oops! I gotta hate a little bit to scare them off!#when will there be popular transfems that don’t fucking hate us.#I can name ONE blogger I know who is transfem and actually appreciates transmascs and acknowledges we are oppressed#not more oppressed than transfems. oppressed are all. oppressed even NEAR equally.#that’s how bad it is#I can’t imagine making the pills that make you green comics#and not actually believing like any of it#all of the comics point to her being supportive of trans men and lesboys and the infinite ways we are complex#and yet. the second someone asks about it and baeddels create an uproar#‘actually tmes are 4chan mra losers and lesboys are just trying to claim access to lesbianism because they have vaginas 🙄’#it’s literally just more proof that people against transandrophobia terminology don’t have any actual moral reason to be against it#they just hate *us* and want us to shut up because then they don’t have to pretend they support us
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It kinda always makes me sad when people talk about arospec characters on the qsmp and only talk about q!Jaiden and q!mike without mentioning q!bbh :( like honestly q!bbh’s relationship with q!forever and how ambiguous it is is 100% an aromantic experience I’ve had.
People assuming my relationship with my partner is romantic when it’s not - at least not in the way they imagine - or assuming it will eventually turn romantic as if what we have isn’t good enough and I hate seeing the same thing happen to q!bbh
Idk I’m just sad and tired of q!bbh’s arospec identity being erased or forgotten or valued less than q!jaiden and q!mike because he has such a popular ship and complicated relationship with another character even tho cannon 4halo is incredibly aromantic/queer platonic in of itself :/
(Also q!forever is arospec/lithoromantic as well so in general their ship is incredibly aromantic/queer platonic from like every angle
#qsmp#badboyhalo#it’s just exhausting#like I don’t care about fanfic or headcannons or what ever#but it always hurts when bbh is left out of posts talking about arospec characters on the qsmp#when cc!bbh explicitly said he’s playing q!bbh as arospec#:(#just cuz one of his relationships looks allo from the outside#but is incredibly aro when you actually know the characters involved#I love 4halo as queer platonic boyfriends#but I hate what the fandom did to them#bring back the times when it was like ten of us screaming into the void about them#one of the reasons I prefer starhalo rn honestly
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